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rahthebrainbobo @ 2009-07-22T23:50:00

2009-07-22T15:46:07Z

TO WORDPRESS!

Simplicity is bliss...

2009-06-25T18:34:05Z

It's 2am and I've not started on the books for tonight. Craa and CF left untouched and paper's gonna start on monday. Kill me,seriously. So much for wanting to 'quarantine' myself at home the whole of this week to study :( I really havent made ~~much~~ any progress and I'm really really worried for myself. Was telling fatboy I have this urge to just give up and flunk my papers this time round. But the thought of 25% for most of the papers and that it's my final year,I should just abolish all these warped thoughts and slap myself back to reality. I'm desperately finding my drive to study and the concentration I need. Sigh. And now that bitch is back,I'm even more tempted to go shopping with her without thinking of the books waiting for me at home :( Had a good dinner tgther with her and fatboy today. I find it funny seeing how fatboy tease her and how she reacts by kicking his ass and pinching him really hard. Perhaps cos deep down I think she kinda 'helped' me punish fatboy with his deserving punishment for bullying me when she's not around. Keke revenge time. Heh. It was definitely a good time I had with them just now. At least it took my mind off my study woes. Plus cheng teng at newton is sooo refreshing and good given this nastily hot weather. :/

And I'm really sorry for deciding not to join the rest for dinner later tonight. I guess I have to knock some sense into myself and start the engine for studying,running. Well,I'll meet bitch again on sat for some retail therapy so I need to put in my fullest concentration today. Anyway,I think I need to get a deserving get away for the next holiday since life had been a mad rush. Time to save(i hope). Hmmm and a note to self; I need to get my brows done.

Btw,just wanna thank H again for eh tuesday night (i think) if I havent remembered wrongly. Thanks for the listening ear and prudent advice. Cant imagine how I would have made it through that night without you. Thank you :)

TGIF. Have a good weekend people (+) get ready for a good fight come monday for peeps with papers! :)

IF GOD IS FOR US,WHO CAN BE AGAINST US

2009-06-17T19:52:26Z

So sso hooked on boys over flower now. I'm already into ep 22. Need to get it over and done with soon or I seriously cant concentrate on studying. I have one of their theme song on repeat mode now. Pretty sure the song will keep replaying in my head even when I turn in. Great! Which means I'm gonna have a hard time sleeping :( I'm so sad sogou only has it in the wma format thus I cant load it into my touch *pouts* Gonna force pui boy to help me get it by tml!!!

Neeway,I'm so proud of myself ydae(wed) cos I finally picked up my pen and flipped to the first chpter of blaw and yes I studied :) Like finally I'm studying and I was on it for almost an hour k? :) Thank god for pui boy who dragged me outta bed and kept nagging me to study and his brother,who kinda 'motivated' me too when he said he's gonna study his physics now. So I thought why not study tgther while waiting for dinner and my drama to start. Geez ;)

Hmm and I also registered for driving already. Guess what? I'm taking auto. Very noob I know but dont laugh at me pls. I was forced by my parents so yeah auto that is it. I guess I dont have much of a say since they're the ones sponsoring me. So my goal now is to get everything over and done with in the shortest possible time so I can get my license fast. But but but,I have one worry..which is I've some sort of phobia when it comes to crossing roads at t-junction esp or those really wide roads and you want me to jaywalk,I'm just scream and run across unless there're completely no vehicle :( So to say I'm afraid of vehicles (which is really dumb i think). Well,friends who've ever crossed roads with me will know :( Just pray the mind will think differently when we turn the tables around and have those of a driver and not a pedestrian.

Oh well,I'll just have to fight with myself to overcome my fears ;( Alright time to turn in. Some lighting people coming over at 9am tml which means they're so gonna disturb my sleep gah!! Only 5hrs of sleep left shit okay gotta run night night ;)

Let the weary heart rest.

2009-06-01T17:29:17Z

Just so happened to be reading my blog and realised I've been at LJ for exactly 2 yrs. Whao time really flies. Sometimes I think it's too fast,I dont get a chance to intercept and stop certain things from happening. Sad but true, I find myself landing in the same plight as I was 2 yrs back. I think I'm a hard one to handle. It must be me.

RUNNING ROUND IN CIRCLES

2009-05-26T17:05:20Z

I'm so sick of BD. Cant believe I'm gonna eat sleep shit with BD in mind for the remaining months until I graduate. Oh man this is seriously killing me slow,really slow!!!! I finally understand why fat boy hated his FYP so much when he did it last year. It's so annoying cos there's so much to research on, so many reports to churn out, and 4 damm presentations. URghhhh!!! Okay,nuff said gotta get back to BD again. Suck big time!!! I think I need a big bear hug fattyboy :(

It's late time for bed,

2009-05-20T18:19:42Z

Great! Winnie just reminded me lulu's lesson's at 9eh-m tml and not 10eh-m. Just goes to show what a gr8 student I am. I dont h8 school. But hey the waking up part and the distance's definitely a chore. Anyhow, I cn feel official hectic school work bitting me slowww. Had a full page of reminders plastered on my phone's note on sunday. I can finally see more of my wallpaper now that it's mid week and most are accomplished. It better be,cos I've been staying up till 3eh-m on most nights, my eyebags are getting heavier :( Oh plus I had major horrid outbreak of pimpies. Good thing they are on their way home already. Need to pamper with some mask soon.

Wanna get my hair,brow and nails done too when my pocket gives the green light. I've been spending so much on clothes but i feel so fat x10000000000, i still see myself in the same outfit everyday. Not possible for me to stop eating cos eating means alot to me and no way I can run everyday since I'm always almost tired and restless the moment i'm home. Tell me, how how? :(

Fatness aside for happy thoughts:
- Dom's bdae dinner was gr8. laughed alot again,cha cha indian lady and all plus potato surprise bdae cake (haha!!!)
- 8 hrs of baking self in the sun with alas,yx,val and fel on a Sunday afternoon till night to get peektures for our photography assignment is wayyy too coool. Really had gr8 fun with the peeps albeit the sunburnt shoulder.
- Dim sum buffet today was gr8 besides bad service (me thinks they h8 us cos we ordered so much at one time. all was X2/X3.) Like hello,we pay to eat dude!
- Piknik at botanic on friday with the happy people!! YAY X987654321!!! (hv waited like 4ever for them to all agree and set the date. geez.) Pray for good weather and fun time together yay! :) (+) mahjong plans.
- saucony 10k on sunday. (sorry legs u're gonna ache come mon tue wed thurs cos i'm lazy :/ but pls dont disappoint me on sunday thankq)
- Fatb,imu though i just saw you today. Sleep tight you chub cheekz.

Kbye,nights.

Happy 20th,

2009-05-14T19:10:58Z

It's late I should be well tucked in bed. But at times like this,sleeping feels like such a waste of time. I'd rather bejewel. LOL. Been at bejeweled for the past couple of hrs till I finally managed to hit a high of 127k. It's so addictive. I should have already been done with my resume and cover page by tonight. But guess what? Nothing's even done. Discipline,please come by soon I need you.

Was on the phone with H awhile ago. Rubbished through again. I think I've pretty imaginative thoughts running through from time to time or perhaps imaginative can be substituted by crappy? iono. I'm disturbed by some blog I read. I was totally disgusted by it initially then I thought it was funny. I'm absolutely fine with girl&girl cos I see it as normal. But guy&guy is a lil errr you know?

Anyway,it's our 20th today. That dumb thing sleeping now doesnt seem to care and bother cos we usually dont cept for our yearly anni. I cant say he has been the best or the worst. Cos he has been both through this 20. But anyhow I'm just glad albeit all the downs of this r/s,which almost always threaten to throw us off this ride together,we still managed to hang on tight and ride it through. As much as I would love to ask for more of everything,I think I should just really be thankful for an annoying wonderboy like him to keep a lookout for me everyday and showering me with love from his actions more than words. Though he's definitely a far cry from the sweet and romantic kinda guy girls like me would love to call mine,I am still happy to have him as my other half :)

Hmm,maybe I should dig B up for Macs bfast tml. We'll see. I'm turning in soon. Needa pee too. TGIF,have a good weekend. I'm out! :)

Period. Big time.

2009-05-06T17:35:13Z

Cover letter cover letter urghhhh. 1.23am and I'm thinking of starting on my cover letter. Lesson at 9am tml. Dont wanna be as late as I was today. Old habit die hard eh?

Dinner with sweetheart baybee tml. YAY! :) Anyway tunning into 98.7 now. I realised a growing trend of weird people calling in. There's this guy who just called and lied that he's actually calling from new york and tunning in via the internet when 987 has no such service? He even went on with some other rubbish reasons. I was like wtf so weird?!? Okay,enuff need to do something more productive and turn in soon. Another note,i miss you bitch. Will send my kisses and all the love I have for you over to you soon :)

I'm out ~

Live life to the fullest :)

2009-05-01T10:01:00Z

It's a PH today cos it's labour day. But somehow it feels like a saturday instead of a friday. But thanks to labour day,we get a long weekend! :) Anyway,already done with the first week of school. Last friday was officially my last day at work. Time really flies when i'm in school,but unfortunately not when i'm at work.

It's hard to believe and sounds stupid,but yeah I allowed my emotions to get the better of me. It wasnt meant to be but I guessed I'm not so hard hearted afterall. I do miss the time working there,with wonderful colleagues (beside stupid monster of course!). Monster really did make work so horrible. I hope he's bullying the RM who came down from the branch to help and hopefully the RM will do a complain against him and Maybank get him fired!!! WOOhooo.

Alright,so first week of school is pretty slack. Haven done a single tutorial told and yeah the drive to work hard hasnt kicked it yet. So much of talking and laughing in class and everywhere. I really have to treasure the last year of poly life and live it to the max! :) Anyway,yesterday was great. We had a go at golf at laguna. It was pretty good besides the fact that my arms and waist is slightly aching now. Again filled with alot of laughters. My friends never fail to make my day cos we just have so much to laugh about. Dom was really like our golf coach ydae. Five of us were standing around him,clubs in the hand and following his postures and hand positioning. He's a pretty good coach cos all of us could get the hang of it pretty well :)

Before that,we headed over to dom's place to get the clubs and at the same time,to check out his baby huskies. There're threee of them and they're so cute I swear. They're almost like a baby and the moment you carry them in your arms,they literally close their eyes and falls asleep. So cutteee. I'll put up pictures of them when I'm hardworking enough to load them into my com haha.

And after golf,we went over to upper thomson for prata. Yes prata at prata house. Virgin try for alas and he loves it! haha he was like I never know prata can be so nice since it's just prata. Something along that line. But yeah,prata is nice when it's crispy prata! I hope there's more to come together with them. Am looking forward to the many failed attempt to stayover at dom's,mahjong at carmen's and not so for squash. Cos thankfully when it comes to the sporty activities,we set the date and get out ass working which is pretty good :)

Alright,I'm gonna get changed and head over to my aunt's place for bbq. Gonna check out the new addition to their family;a jack russell. I hope it's gonna be as cute as ginger. Speaking of ginger,haven seen her for a long time and I really miss her :(

Okay,gotta go going. Have a good weekend people! :)

Your lips like sugar.

2009-04-21T15:54:44Z

Bee just told me this secondary school girl's still bugging him. Desperate bitch. Muahahah very nasty meanie me I know. Why desperate bitch? Cos she knows he's attached and still bugging him. Courting death by messing around with my boy eh! I'll scare her away with my beady meanie eyes if I ever see her haha. No dramas for me. Wont go slap her face or pull hair. Too childish lor. I'll just warn her to stop texting those typa msges she shouldnt be sending to him and to forget about coming between us cos there isnt even a space for her to come between in the first place.

I really dont mind anyone texting msges meant for friends,but once you cross the line and get mushy then I will be more than willing to give you a piece of my mind. And I dont understand how that bugger can still be so daring though bee already told her he's attached. Must be super ugly that's why so desperate muahahaha. Okay,enough of that desperate buggy bitch hee hee dont wanna waste my time here thinking and talking about her cos I'm sure bee will start to ignore her after awhile :)

Let's talk about the monster in my office. Yes monster! There's this guy in office whose hobby is to throw all his shit to interns/part timers. He has record of making past part-timers cry. You see how monsterous he is! And he's huge. He told me he weigh 90kg plus. Bloody fat and he has a mor peng face aka fat body plus ugly face. I see liao also want puke and to think he actually has a gf. Omg,she must be so so blind. Feel so so sorry for her. Wait,maybe she's also fat and ugly hahahahhaa. Then good for them,the perfect fat body ugly face couple. Muahahaha :P I know I'm very mean but I dont mean it lor. Like how he dont mean it by throwing all his task to me.

I've done alot to piss him off throughout this 2 months. But I think it's perfectly alright since I've also done alot to help ease his workload. He just dont know how to appreciate and when I give him an inch,he ask for a yard. So everytime I'm nice,he takes it for granted and ask me do more. Sometimes I have this urge to go up to him and tell him no one in office owe him a living and I'm an intern working in the office,not his maid at home! Seriously,I think people like him should wake up their idea and stop bossing people around at the work place when u're not even the supervisor/manager/boss. Really need to learn how to show some respect for people.

Urghhh fuming now the moment I mention him. Including tml,there'll be 3 more days to go. Why so slooooowwwww??? And I miss my friends. My poly friends. Why nobody initiating the meet up this week? :( Hmmm,having dinner with nic tml. Gonna think of what good food to eat to chase my blues at work away. hee hee. And my male bitch,I hope u're having a good time in school. As for female bitch,I hope u're missing me more with each passing day ahhaa. You better reply my email fast and not keep me waiting when it comes to hawt news haha. Anyway,all the best for exams darling! :) Not forgetting my other darling who's selling chocos. I hope business's good! :)

Okie dokie,time to play some game and hit the sack. 3 more days 3 more days. Gogo Jiayou! :)

Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

2009-04-19T16:09:15Z

Really cant help myself from holding back my laughter as i watch s-factor on channel 5 at 10pm just now. It's was really funny seeing how the girls get all flustered in their attempt to inflate the balloons. I am not trying to be mean here. But one of them actually didnt know how to go about using the funnel the right way. Gawd it's a funnel. Not some sophiscated high tech equipment. Funnel? An equipment not only seen in the science lab,but can also be found in kitchens? And the topic of the debate was whether beauty/looks should come with brains? Hmm,cant rmb the exact question but yeah it runs something along that line.

I think beauty should come with THE brain. It's only then will people really admire you cos u're both beautiful and smart. I wouldnt wanna see a pretty and hot lady on tv,who cant even string a proper sentence or just spouting nonsense on national tele without even thinking. Which was practically what happened on tele just now during the show. Dont you find it embarrassing? Cos people are laughing their asses off at you. U're just nothing but a clown to those watching,at least that's how I felt.

And looking at MSU and other pageants,they usually have a section where they test your intellectual capability. You wouldnt want a lady with a really pretty face,but when asked to answer questions which require a certain level of intellectual thinking,to be veering off the question of topic and being oblivious of that right? At the same time keeping in mind,MSU or any other beauty queens from other countries are acting as ambassadors of their own country. I'm sure no one wants to send someone intellectually incapable to represent your country. If you do,what will people from other country think of the females in singapore right? So yeah. Just some thoughts I had in mind while watching s-factor. Read both positive and negative comments of it on papers,most of which are negative ones of course haha. Handful complaining that channel 5 lack of ideas on what to film,so they had to come up with something like that.

Whatever it is,I think as viewers we have a choice over so many other channels,so if u're really not happy with watching what's shown,just pick up the bloody control and switch to other channels. Otherwise just stay on,watch and laugh. Good form of entertainment what. haha

Alright enough on that. 5 days of attachment to go. As much as I'm looking forward to school,I'm sure when I finally do return to school next week,I'll start ranting about how bad school is after the first week or when assignments and projects starts piling up? I know,never ending ranting. Must learn to be satisfied with life.

Okay,looking forward to the end of the last ordeal week of the month. I should fill my entire week with plans after work to help me look forward to the end of work every day. haha. Gotta hit the sack. Have a good week ahead. Goodnight :)

Hoping you sing along,though it's not your favourite song

2009-04-14T15:36:28Z

Why do I feel that I've lost? I think I've lost someone close.
It was different. Wasnt meant to be cold,unfamiliar and without a smile.
Overwhelmed with emotion now as I recall.
Please tell me I'm wrong,cos you're one I've never thought I would lose.

Undeniable,you're like a dream come true

2009-04-12T10:25:29Z

Gosh,cant describe how insanely bored I am currently. And I feeel disgusted with my oily face plus hair,but too layzee to bath. Another reason for not wanting to bath is also cos my damm nails broke :( It broke into the flesh part so I've no idea how to deal with it cos no matter what I know it's gonna hurt. And bee's supposed to help me cut it ydae but he forgot about it :( so now I'll have to get it done myself or just paste a plaster over and let it rot or something under the plaster so I can wash my disgusting long spoilt hair.

I have to admit I hate my hair now cos it's not smooth and silky flowing down kind. It's dry and spoilt kind and my hair colour is fading very ugly-lee,as commented by bee. He suggest I go get it done in black again. Am contemplating if I should,cos afterall the pocket gotta be ready before I can do so.

And I missed bitch. Just told her that over msn. Wanted to email her but was too layzee so thank god she was online so yup we had a very interesting conver with the word sibeh appearing many many times. I told her I damm free today,free until sibeh bored,sibeh bored until sibeh crazy. LOL. Okay,sounds really retarded but I really AM really bored. Wanna go for jog,but then the P is here. Wouldnt want the other P to get all wet and stick to ma ass. Gross. Shall resume my jogging next week after P is over since I've been indulging so much with food over this long weekend.

Back to work tml. Boring shit. Anihow,Lotsa tele show to catch tonight which is good so I dont have to glue my eyes to the com since I've already done that the entire afternoon. Dinner time,bye. :)

You make the love worthwhile

2009-04-09T17:27:54Z

GOOOOD FRRRIDDDAY,just saved us from a day off work. 10 days to go,I'm counting down! So since it's gonna be a long weekend,I'm gonna make it a fruitful one. Gonna spend one day slacking and resting at home and two out with bee and my family I hope. Will be heading to east coast for cycling tml with bee. Pray for good weather cos I've been requesting bee to cycle eons ago and since we finally set our heart mind and soul to get our bums out,the weather better not play us out. The last time we cycled together was during the 'honeymoon' period of our r/s,which was probably more than a year back I reckon,since we're already almost 19 months old. Time flies,but I hope what we built with time remains :)

Hmmm,listening to Soo on 98.7 now. Have also been tuning in to 98.7 for the past 6 weeks at work and I realized being a DJ aint that bad afterall. Sounds crazy but I actually had the thought of participating for the nokia event cos if I got picked,I'll get a chance to co host with desiree. I mean how cool is that to be able to speak through national radio,playing all my favourite songs,speaking into the mic knowing that anyone tuning in will be listening to me. Okay,I'm building castle in the air already with kiss me thru the phone by soulja boy playing at the back. Slaps myself back to reality and yes I know I dont even stand a chance cos I couldnt think of a perfect playlist which can actually relate a good story,so yeah I decided to give it a miss. And so the two probable sector I'm interested in will probably be radio/media and the banking/financial sector for sure. Banking cos that's where I can see moolahs rolling in and media will be interest. But well oh well,I think I still have time to keep my options open and leave the decison making till then.

Anyway,should go listen to kiss me thru the phone by soulja boy. I like the beat and it can get quite addictive cos it's already on repeat mode now. hahha. Alright,have a great loooonnnggg weekend. 10 more days to go for those on itp muahaha! :)

Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
Cant deny I have to thank god I found that silly you. :)

Let your heart see what your eyes cannot.

2009-04-07T12:17:28Z

Alright,I give up trying to post my items up on sgflea. Had been trying since afternoon but arghhh it's always full :(

Today is the appointment for gems application. My supervior was nice enough to allow me half a day off. So after the application,I decided to go for a good lunch with my mum at hans rather than the usual coffee shops nearby which I'm already damm damm sick of. Anyway,am glad I got into the module of my choice for gems. I dunno how quick were the rest. But I managed to get everything done within 2 mins. Cant describe how fast my heart was beating then,cos fast is an understatement. It was faster than fast. I know it's dumb cos I've no idea why the hell my heart was beating so fast and why I was getting all anxious. Hmm,I think bee would wish my heart reacts that way everytime I see him eh? hee hee

Hmm,caught up with dearest yiling yesterday. Almost couldnt recognise her without her specs and hair tied. Not that I haven seen her with her hair up before,but she just looks different. Prettier babe! haha :) And yes,I'm serious you really look good darling. Plus you dont look like a stick already,though still skinny. You should be the one eating more,not me cos I'll be fat no matter what already. Everyone knows I'm fat. Bee says my tummy tells it all. His mum says my face is rounder. Alas calls me sarah fat. My dad says I have elephant legs. Very upsetting cos my self esteem is certainly diminishing :(( What to do? I mean if I'm born fat,with fat face fat legs fat body and all,even after I exercise,I guess I just have to take it as it is. Just pretend or rather take what people say about me with a pinch of salt and love myself for my fatness. Geez. Anyway bee's fat,so we shall be fat together. Okay bit cheezy here.

Guess wad,my mum's shouting like a bitch outside the living room,for my name. But here I am pretending not to hear her. Cos she's so super addicted to viwawa,she doesnt pick up the house phone when it rings or when the door bell sounds,just cos she's in the midst of her game. And she's shouting now cos she doesnt wanna stop her game and come in to ask me about dinner. So since her stupid game's more important than other stuff,I shall ignore her. Muahahah :P

Two weeks left for itp yay! Cant wait cant wait. Den it's time to pull my socks higher till it touches my head and finish my last lap in poly. I hope I'm determined and disciplined enough to achieve my goal. My parents often compare me to my brother. But I tell you,my brother and I are freaking two different person with two freaking different characteristic and personality. He's the super studious type while I'm on the other hand,unfortunate or not I dunno,the super lazy kind.

Last minute studying can throw me into the brink of depression but I know I'll still survive it eventually. Tell me about consistent daily studying,I swear that will drive me into depression instantly. But not for my brother cos he likes studying. Okay maybe not like. I mean who likes studying? It's probably the drive in him to attain his achievements. He often lecture me on how consistent studying helps,with his biological sense or wad i dunno,when I tell him it's bullshit cos I forget everything by time exam approaches.

So the bottom line is..I must show them that lazy people like me,CAN achieve what they think I'm incapable of!

At times when they scold me and compare how discipline my brother is as to me,they often mislead me into thinking I'm stupid and useless. I hate that feeling,really. It just suck. It feels like I'm being condemned like I'm a nobody. All that drama will eventually lead me crying over the phone with bee on the other end trying to console me. I'm not stupid definitely,cos no one is.

I dont need to pretend to be who I'm not. I hate being forced to do things that displeases me. What really matters to me is that I'm taking things in my stride and being happy doing what I'm working at. Cos at the end of the day,whatever the results/consequences are,I'll point at no one else but myself. Cos I'm only liable for myself,my mistakes.

Plus I really hate the fact that my parents keep thinking a degree is everything. It's 'paper chase' everywhere now I know. A good qualification is definitely important. But there are times when I feel they are so narrow minded about everything. From school to christianity stuff to people to everything. I think they also have to stop being so judgemental. Not everything can be seen from the surface or just in one glance. They're more beyond what your eyes can see.

Let your heart see what your eyes cannot.

Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side; It's the climb...

2009-03-26T16:22:37Z

Decided to stop my game and spare some time here.
TGIF! :)
4 more weeks to go. Please fly by.
So again,I'll rant on how work's being such a bitch. I dont understand so much,but thank god i have bee here to hear me out.
I'll go on and on with my ranting and how I feel about this and that at work or should I be doing this or that.
So he'll be there to offer me constructive advice and convince me all will end soon just tolerate with it a little longer.
Oh well.

Anyway,currently listening to the climb by miley cyrus.
I think it's a good song. Really meaningful lyrics.

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

So here's the chorus for you. Go google for the entire lyrics or something? Cos I think the entire of it is really really meaningful.

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose , Ain't about how fast I get there , Ain't about what's waiting on the other side;
It's the climb

I totally agree with the sentence above. It's not always about winning and being the best. Sometimes you just gotta lose and learn from the loss. Sometimes,what really matter is the process; thick or thin, fast or slow. Because from here,you know if you are determined and strong enough to pull through it all.

Between the two;first and only...

2009-03-20T19:33:02Z

Dont be my first choice,cos first can be replaced. Be my only choice;irreplaceable.

It's almost 3. I'm still awake. I'm actually really worned out plus I'm having a splitting headache since afternoon at work. I think the blood period's on its way cos I feel emotional listening to sad songs. As usual,I confuse myself with so many thoughts running through. I wish everything is simplier with no lies,no heartaches,no worries,no betrayal and all. Dont get me wrong,I'm not upset. Like I said,those are probably coming from the whole twirl of emotion I'm feeling now. I know i should be well tucked into bed and not rumbling away here since the pain,but somehow I just think sleeping will be a waste of time since I only have the weekends to myself now that work takes up so much time.

Hmm,as I see friends around me getting upset cos of a heartache given in return of their love,care and concern for another,it really makes me wonder why is it always so tough to lead a simple and happy life with the one you love. Is that too much to ask for?

I believe in fate and affinity. Have you ever thought,why out of the many million billion and zillion people on earth,you are together with him/her instead of the many other he/she? So shouldnt we learn to treasure and love your other half more?

Alright,I think I should stop thinking and questioning myself. Cos eventually I know all these are questions without an answer,just like a story without an ending.

Just you and me,against the world...

2009-03-19T16:47:44Z

TGIF! :)
Really thank god. Cos after today,it's 4 weeks to freedom. I really cant wait for that day to arrive. Come soon come soon.

I need:
-more time for myself
-more time with bee
-more time with my frens
-more time for my bed

Time time time. Why cant there be more than 24 hours a day? Every day is a mad rush. Take it slow,take it slow.

Anyway i went for a hair cut today. Tail still intact. But my fringe. Urghh,so short. I should keep in mind never to touch my fringe again the next time i visit the salon. For that, I have to bear with curly,untidy,shoort and not so tame fringe for a few months. :(

Way Back Into Love...

2009-03-16T17:31:08Z

Just a quickie! Really exhausted and all from attachment. I really hate working life now. To think I actually used to love it. What hsun said was so so true. I wanna go back to school cos school has flexi hours,school can be pon-ed,school ends early,school can go buy food anytime i like. I'm almost already half dead after work every day,but cos I need a life,I'll forcefully drag myself to meet friends to catch up over dinner or movie. And in fact,the after work programme actually gave me more determination to pull through the day,knowing that I have wonderful time with friends to look forward to after work.

But anyhow,I still love school to the max. Please knock me on the head if I ever were to say I'd rather work cos working is no fun at all!! :( To top it off,I hate desk bounded jobs. I like more interaction. I dont like the idea that my head is always hidden behind that damm com plus my eye hurts from the hours of staring at the com. Good thing out of all is that I have a pretty nice supervisor,I hope. Unless she gives me a lousy overall grade,then i think she suck. Colleagues are also alright. Handful of them are pretty nice though. Also good thing that I'm picking the ropes bit by bit,which is really helpful to what I'm studying. But lunch,oh my lunch is pathetic. Can you believe it,but i eat the same food with the same ingredient every day. I think it's me,but yeah the place also plays a part k! Yeah yeah,the ulu-ness :(:(

Results out in eh another day or so. I dont ask for much. Just let the bloody gpa hit 3,I'm contented. But if i'm asking for a lil bit more,then let it hit 3.2. In the meantime,I'm keeping my fingers crossed. And mummy got me my itouch over at the IT show. But it has been such an arse till date. I needa go read up on how to tame this thing when I'm free.

Alright,time i hit the sack. I needa get up early cos i hate having to walk so fast in bloody heels. Let's test water and wear my flats and short skirt tml. Muahahah. K. Nights. Bye! :)

today,tomorrow and the many days ahead will be a better day! :)

2009-02-26T17:26:14Z

Just washed off my face mask. I like how my face feels soft and smooth now. hee hee :) Gonna neaten my brows and wax upper lips tml. Nails on sunday. So much of pampering myself yay! haha :) Niway,caught he's just not that into you today. Oh no wait,it's ydae since it's already past 12. Pretty good movie I like it cos it's the type of movie I enjoy watching. Confession of a shopaholic which is coming up in movie is also the same type i like (if you get the drift. hah). I like how they show the situation few couples were in which is pretty much what reeally happens in reality. Kinda enlighten me here and there.

Alright I need to sleep early cos I will be waken by all the drillings in the morning plus phone calls. Which was pretty much wad happened this morning. I almost died I tell you plus on the verge of pulling my hair off my head cos I slept at 6 plus and was really tired. Last thing on my mind is to wish for all those rubbish to come in. Orhkie,gonna hop into bed and read 8days with good music accompanying me through the night. Today will be a better day! Toodles! :)

Blessed...

2009-02-25T18:23:25Z

So exam's finally over. Three very exhausting and ordeal week for me. I cant study in the day and I'm stuck to the tele like a couch potato at night which left me with only midnight to study. So Ive more or less been studying until 5 plus 6 everyday for the past two weeks or so. Sound very hardworking but if u think of it,actually my revision is only bout 6-7 hours or so a day. Dunno if this is long to you,but considered little to me. Cos i often find myself racing for time when i study. That should be the price I have to pay for all the last minute studying. But then again,if I were to prepare earlier,I'll be wasting my time cos I'm sure to forget everything when exam comes. So just heck,exam come then study.

Enough on studies. Contented now that I've uploaded more nice songs into my phone. Mummy's gonna get an itouch for me soon,so I can put in more songs then. Yay! Anyway i wonder how big is 2GB,I know i sound like a noob but cos I have 273 songs and 914 pics in my phone already. But the memory is still not exhausted so just thought 2GB is quite small but how come can still keep loading things in. Okay quite dumb.

Anyway,i think i feel so relieved that i dont have to study for anything already so i'm feeling so happy now. Just really really happy,i feel like going for supper now. Feel like eating roti prata. Speaking of food,went to old airport road for dinner with my classmates. Yet to bring that fat thing there to eat cos so really alot good food there i reckon. And i'm gonna mention that fat thing though i said not to previously. Cleared the air so yes. So that fat thing damm nice today sacrificed his break food,came to deliver lunch knowing that I will skip lunch until dinner if he doesnt send food. And now i know how pathetic he is cos when i open the packet,staring back at me was a heap of fried noodles with four pieces of dunno wad chicken which obviously tasted like you know,quite bad. On top of that,no chilli no nothing. But then surprisingly I finished more than half cos he purposely divert on his way to work just to send me lunch,I cant bear to throw it away like that so bo bian just force myself eat as much.

Niway,that bitch's back so dinner tml. Lunch and movie with classmates. Winnie and carmen leaving for cheena soon so we wont have time together for 1.5 mths? Maybe less than that but nihow,cant play squash or go catch moovee together with them. Nonetheless,hope they enjow themselves in cheena. Which reminds me that attachment's starting on blue blue monday. I want more time to rest,why cant they start like one week later? Before that,I gotta ensure my nails and brows are nice and neat. I hate having messy brows.

oookay,time to surf the net aimlessly,bore myself out and hit the sack. Night! :)

higher you go,harder you fall...

2009-02-19T18:15:01Z

I've been wanting to say this for some time already...

That I really admire how friends around me can be so selfless and big-hearted plus good tempered as well. It's so hard for me to control my temper most of the time already and I am not the sort that will say 'nvm just let it be,it's okay' when people step on my tail or be it in any circumstances I feel I am not happy with. But they can just close one eye to everything. Thank god for friends like them and it's high time to learn from them...

It's how hard you get hit,and keep moving on...

2009-02-16T09:01:38Z

I'm only starting to munch on my lunch now. Think I'll skip dinner again later or eat light. Hoho see the skinny me soon. I should learn to control my diet now that I've stopped running.

Anyway,something unhappy happened last night. I think it's childish,but perhaps that's privacy to you. And I dont like it when I have to control what I say and put here cos of you. I'm not happy at all,if i will have to blog like that. And it's like though u're a part of me,I have to pretend u're not just cos you dont like it. I'm really upset and it has been eating into me ever since this issue first surface.

Sometimes I wonder if it's the differences that's causing so much of hell. Anyhow,to me blogging is good in a sense that people whom I dont really talk to or haven been talking to for a long long time,I get updates on them via their blogs. It feels good when you see your friends happy,be it in words or pictures. Just so you know,a picture paints a thousand words.

It's alright,I'll lock my post soon and get an account for my best buds cos I really want to share my happiness and sadness with them. Esp bitch,we're always busy and I know I dont reply emails after some time. Nevertheless,perhaps never mentioning you is not that bad afterall.

Paper tml. I hope I dont screw up like the first one. Another note,Yeh hsun hao i miss you already! I hope u're having the time of your life there. Be back soon!! :)

Have faith,and think happy thoughts...

2009-02-11T17:56:29Z

15 mins past 1. I should be off soon,but decided to drop in here. One paper down on tuesday. It was bad,really. I broke a promise to myself cos of that damm paper. Arghh!! :( I felt like crap before the paper started cos I barely remembered much. 25 marks for first question and I dare say I can barely earn myself 2 marks for that. Sigh. Friendly speaking,I knew i wasnt prepared but was just trying my luck,hoping miracle happen and everything i read through will flow back in. Unfortunately,nothing of that sort happened. I'd better learn from my lesson. Very painful lesson cos my initial goal of attaining at least a B is dashed. Hoping for the best now and at this rate I'm going,how to enter uni? Sigh :(

So as the saying goes: Dont cry over spilled milk.
I just had to rant all those above out and I wont talk about it already. What's the point when I think it's more important to move on and grasp the last chances I have for the upcoming papers. As of now,I am not really working at it yet. But I'm gonna mark my words and charge on!

I was just telling bee my future seems so bleak. Just cant help feeling the hopelessness. Sigh. Hmm,I guess I should just have faith and think happy thoughts. I think I need little encouragement like this to pull me through tough times. On a happier note,itp placement is out and thank god I'm posted to a bank,which is good cos it's relevant to what I'm studying. Not trying to be greedy,but I hope I'll get posted to the raffles place branch so I can meet alas and dom for lunch. And it would be la gi best if yx and I will be posted there together. Okay,getting bit too greedy here. Haha. There stand a chance if there's hope k. So i'll hope for that chance. Hee hee

Alright,it's getting late. I'll go google on what good can an expired milk do to your skin. Cos my mum has a pack of brand new but unfortunately expired milk and I actually used it to soak my feet just now haha. Awesome much if it's good for skin! :) Goodnight! :D

GOGO JIA YOU! :)

2009-02-08T12:00:27Z

Hello! I'm grooving to class95 now! Sometimes love just aint enough is playing now. haha Music is sho good,i'm feeling so much more relieved and relaxed now. HA! i think music really helps soothen mood,cos I think i can do work better esp when it somes to typing of report.

I get all stressed up when I do my work without music cos i cant stand the silence. All I hear is motorcycle zooming past,bus braking so hard they screech and 'fart' as well when they release their break or something? Anyway,I din know class95 plays such nice songs on a sunday evening. I thought these were all played during love songs on weekdays only? Oh well,thank god for good music to pull me thru my sunday.

On another note,I didnt attend church today. Slept at 4am,so my mum was nice enough to let me sleep in,though she came in at 3 plus warning me to sleep cos she's sure to dig me up for church in the morning. Ha,so nice of her huh?

So I got up at 1 plus,went for lunch with my family. I dunno why,but this weekend seems so happy family. As in we had dinner ydae,lunch and dinner today as a family. It's rarely the case during weekends. Cos sat is mahjong for my mum,sunday my bro has lunch with his church fren and the only meal together will probably be dinner on sunday. Thank god this weekend is different. :)

Uccd on tuesday. I haven started memorizing anything yet. Gonna settle blaw stuff first den I'll off the com and chuck my laptop into the shelves. So i can have full concentration and not get distracted. Looking at my calendar,I really cant wait for this 3 weeks to pass. Really really looking forward to the day exams end.